Macy is our rainbow baby. We got pregnant with her immediately after an early miscarriage. I felt a little disconnected in the beginning of her pregnancy. I was honestly a little mad that she had “taken the spot” of the baby we lost. I couldn’t understand it, and I didn’t feel the healing I thought I would by getting pregnant again. It didn’t feel real. I was grateful to be pregnant again, grateful my baby was healthy - but I lacked the connection.